Wolves

I am staring at the ground
I am trying not to frown as the clouds, fall amongst me
I trying to hold back the darkness
But, I am scared that it will defend me
My mind is in a time capsule of fear
I hope I don’t disappear

I am jumping in between the shadows
Holding on to the light
Trying not to run with fright into the night
My mind is caught in the crossfire
The world looks so dire
But, I need to become more like a tiger
So I breathe…

I don’t freeze
I screamed louder than the disease
Forcing a hurricane strong wind to eliminate the darkness and reawakening my life
Bringing joy, hope, and happiness

Yet, as I sense a chance of freedom
I glance back at the pack of wolves stalking my shadow
My vision becomes narrower
My heartbeat is racing
My feet are shaking with fear
But, I choose not to disappear
I look the wolves in the eye
Despite them circling from behind
I find a moment of courage and run straight towards the pack
I choose not to stop or step back from this path

I run towards my pain
I run towards my despair
I run towards my past
I run towards a future without fear, so stay with me
Here, in these moments of pain
I will gain an array of space
To move
To be
To finally be free

As these worlds collide, I am free on the inside
The past died for the last time
But, I survived and I will thrive.

© Rosie Burnham

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About Rosie Burnham

I am young voice trying to find a voice between the silence through blogging, using poetry to express my thoughts and running towards recovery. One day, hoping to become a public speaker to share my experiences and raise awareness about the impact of bullying and abuse in schools; highlighting the lasting effects of PTSD on the individual and the family. Twitter: @Rosie_Burnham Blog: rosieburnham.com Huffingpost Blog: www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/author/rosie-burnham Very Loose Women (ResonanceFM): http://bit.ly/2l02xw3